in the end everything my fault ...
wadever thing i do also i wrong....
then tell mi WHAT THE FUCK SHLD I DO !
nobody tell mi other than blaming mi 4 wadever i do
then u lei...wad u do sia? i sae i nth..u deny
i wanna believe u but sumting tell mi maybe it is a cover up for rejection
i onli noe i gif my all * wad i can do i aready accomplish*
gals alway sae guys sux?
wad about themselves? so don throw the blame ard!

argh! knn just nw i shout onli ...my sis came in ask mi wad happen
i sae i in a bad mood nicely..instead she sae i ATTITUDE problem alway like tat
make mi more fed up
wah...tell mi la...*fuji ice palace *1st time i fainted becox of realtionship problem...
does anyone care? HELL NO !!!
other than 4 people , Mango , Razor , Akira & Zhe ..
the other ? MIA
wad i do...alway wrong...then onli i m the 1 suffering...
wad about u? u don even gif a DAMN about mi...
if i don sae y u neber sms mi ? will u?
still sae u care? ALL ARE LIES...
and u noe y i punch my fist 2 the wall,locker etc so hard
even though ut is swollen? cox i felt realli terrible inside
reason? cox i noe i cant have u even if i wait...
transfer the pain from my heart 2 my hand
*sound lame budden don believe u can try*
then farkin shitty people sae i stupid do tis kind of thing?
WHY? ask yrself la...when u r helpless wad u do...
vent out yr hatred , anger or frustration rite?

and i noe u have yr reason...but i just HATE 2 admit it...
i still LOVE You...until nw even though all tis shit is happening
*for all those people hu have grudges wif mi laugh all u wan nw*
cox it is the lowest and most dissapointing day i had tis year
tat include i had a FIGHT today at westmall before i went 2 the rink
*is the gangster find fault nt mi hor*
BLAMing mi again????
i guess being MR NICE GUY is xtremly diffcult 2 maintain
so well i guess i GONNA change
anyway i m as GOOD as DEAD ?
happi !?

tis is wad i AM experiencing nw ....if wan find fault wif mi
YOU ARE ALWAY WELCOME!
oh and derek u sae i sure can slp ah
wanna bet mah? i 3 straight farkin day neber slp mostly cox of her...
and nw is aready 240am le typing all my frustration and helplessness

lastly i was sorri for saying sum stuff in the fone today...for tis i admit is my fault
SO i am SORRI!
but can u understand wad i going thru?
i noe u having yr O level...under great pressure
wad about mi? did u spare a thought 4 mi?
hais.nvm..fark everything ba...
NO SCHOOL TOMMORROW for mi since i in tis state
everything in my life is just going down , and i hope sumone will help mi
make established a TURNING POINT...
nth but Suffering , TEARS & Sadness for tis past week
friends backstabbing mi, fighting, Alex's Death and.... lastly
Akira's NS days
well...bro...frankly speaking i will miz u...thx 4 everything since day 1
when i started skating...the ting u taught mi...everything la...so thx
and take care although i nt gd at words budden is from the bottom of my heart
...hope 2 c u veri soon bro...i tink alot of people will look forward 2 c u too

end

IF U SAW A DEAD END
DON'T GIF UP
THERE IS STILL HOPE AT THE CORNER

i m searching 4 the hope nw i guess
argh!

♥ shinmiko
- 2:15 AM